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The World Has Turned and Left Me Here

The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared.
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face.

People come and go in your life. The types of people who make a tremendous impact on your life are usually the ones that don’t stick around too long. Maybe they disappeared because of something you shouldn’t have done or said; maybe that’s the impact – Learning a hard lesson.

How many times does this lesson need to be learned before we look back and realize that we have stood still while the world keeps turning. If we don’t take the time to appreciate the little things, and the important people in our lives, then what do we have left to live for? We can’t just meander through life and hope for the best.

Times are tough for me right now. My stress level is higher than its been in a while. The last time I was this stressed was as a Supervisor in Boise. We are doing a huge ramp up at work. 20 people in my next training class. I am just hoping we can get that many people hired in time. The whole company is depending on me to get 20 people trained. It feels like all eyes are on me. If I fail, the company hurts.

On top of this, I am part owner in another company. This company is on the brink of emerging from its cocoon. It is my job to ensure this happens. Between my 2 jobs I have not had the time to focus on the little things, nor spend quality time with those whom are important to me. I am not even sure who is important and who isn’t these days.

I have always been one who finds beauty in the small and otherwise unnoticed phenomena in life. Lately I would be lucky to make it through the day without wanting to scream. I need to take more time for me, and focus on my health, my needs, my wants. These are the rough times. This too shall pass.

Do you believe what I sing now?

Take Me To Your Leader

I really enjoyed my sister’s visit. I hope she can come and visit again soon. I had forgotten how nice it was to be around real family. I say “real” family because one of my favorite techniques for coping with new situations and places is to create a surrogate family. I round up some close friends I have made and then assign certain roles. Undoubtedly the first to be picked are the younger brother and sister types. You see, I am the oldest of 4 kids; 2 sisters, 1 brother. I have become used to being the one looked up too, or the one that makes the bad mistakes to ensure everyone else can learn from it. In this role I am a psychologist, the listener, the one that gives superb advice. In this role I am almost without fault. It is good for my ego.

Next I choose someone like my father. I choose someone who reminds me of my dad, not someone to replace the father/son relationship; someone smart, wise, hard working, funny, conservative, someone who is able to push me outside my comfort limits. This is always the person I relate to the best. Someone I can talk to for hours and say some pretty absurd thing, and have them understand. These friends are the types of friends that stick around for a few years.

Next on the assignment list would be my mom. This person is also smart, like my dad, however is not quite as conservative. This person I can relate to for different reasons. I can commiserate with this person. I learn so much just from how this person’s life has turned out. This person can lift me up when I am down.

What is sad is that I admit to doing this. It makes sense to me though. I think anyone that goes to a new place should try to find parallels to their old life. It helps me understand the differences in us all.

The truth is, however, we don’t all fit in nice perfect packages. Sometimes the lines get blurred a bit. The trick is not looking too hard. Let people be who they are and not compare too closely to anyone else.

Easier said than done.