Tag: utah

Categories
general

Situations

Situation Number One:
It’s the one that’s just begun,
But evidently it’s too late.

Situation Number Two:
It’s the only chance for you.
It’s controlled by denizens of hate.

Situation Number Three:
It’s the one that no one sees.
It’s all too often dismissed as fate.

Situation Number Four:
The one that left you wanting more,
It tantalized you with its bait.

-Jack Johnson

I find myself enjoying a simple song this morning. I have not had the luxury of enjoying too much of anything in the last few months, so I find it peculiar that I am still able to be in a fairly agreeable mood just about every morning.

I have some possible job opportunities coming up. If I do not get something soon, I will probably be heading back to Utah. I will try to prevent yet another move across state lines if possible, but these things are not always up to me. It is up to Him whom also gives me the joy to get through every day.

Categories
general

Days Go By

Days go by and still I think of you, days when I couldn’t live my life without you.I am now living in Utah. I have been here for almost 2 weeks. Things are definitely different. Different job, different state, different environment. My car almost ran out of gas the other day, so I pulled up into a gas station to find it was closed! A gas station was closed! Welcome to Utah!

I miss all my friends in Boise. I made a lot of good friends out there. I can’t believe I lived in Boise for almost 3 years. I normally don’t stay in a place long enough to make the high caliber friends that I made, but Boise was the exception. I had a good thing going for me there, but I needed a change. I felt too stagnant. I have done some soul searching. I think I am somewhat afraid of being happy. I don’t know what to do when I’m happy. It feels wrong. When things are complicated and confusing and difficult I know what to do. Those types of situations I am comfortable with because I have been dealing with those types of situations for the past decade.

Thank you to all of you who came out to Lindy’s on my last night in Boise. I appreciate all of you so much. In a month I will be heading out there for an extended weekend. I will make sure Thursday night at Lindy’s is off the hook. Tell Wendy I’m coming!

Days go by and I get more comfortable with being out here. It almost feels like I never left. I have hooked up with my old friends out here and been having a blast. I have been hanging out with Wes, and Kris, and even Ryssa. Today I put my new computer desk together so I no longer have to sit on the floor to get online.

Now that I am closer to home I need to plan a trip to California. There are a lot of people out there that are important to me that I haven’t seen in a while.

You are still a whisper on my lips, a feeling at my finger tips, pulling at my skin. You leave me when I’m at my worst, feeling as if I’ve been cursed by the bitter cold within.

Categories
general

Smell like Teen Spirit

With the lights out it’s less dangerous
Here we are now
Entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now
Entertain us

Over a period of eight months I have moved five times. The first three moves were quite unpleasant. I moved out of my apartment in Draper to live with my friend Jon and his sister up in Salt Lake City. That lasted for a week. The landlord kicked Jon and me out for no apparent reason. So I lived in a motel for a while. Then my good friend “Handy” Andy and his parents took me into their home under the pretense that I would be moving out in 2 months. And I did. I moved too Vale, Oregon. I don’t need to mention anything else about Oregon except it was so nice to leave that house in Vale for the last time. Getting all of Alexis’ things packed in the back of her grandpa’s truck was its own adventure.

Since I got this great Job at DirecTV, I needed to move to Boise, ID. Commute was killing me, and my roommate who was also working in Boise. So we decided to find a place out in Boise, and we did, and here we all are.

I do not like writing in my journal when I don’t have much to complain about. Heh. Things are going so good right now I’m not sure what to do with myself. Job is awesome. Money coming in is enough to take of the things that I need to take care of like rent, bills, internet, and cable (including a little extra rent to help out my roommates). I bought a washer and a dryer (They are piles of crap, but they work, barely) I am currently saving up to upgrade my computer, get a nice big TV and eventually I hope to have enough money to either get my car working better or buy a new one (I have a feeling that it would cost about the same)

I was making more per hour in Utah, and could never accomplish this. I don’t know why exactly that is, but I’m sure smoking the herb had something to do with it. Now that I’m clean I have so much more motivation to excel at my job and save money, and just plain do what I need to be doing.

I love it. I have found my niche in Boise. Maybe location has less to do with it and maybe it has more to do with timing. Any way you look at it, timing or location, I’m here, right now, and I don’t think I need to be anywhere else.